Floating

"Floating"
8X10"
Colored pencil

I have been reluctant to post anything new, because so many people have responded to my previous post. I am grateful for all the support I've received from friends, family, and other artists. It means so much more to me than I could ever put into words.

Although this drawing may seem like someone drowning, it is not. There have been times when I thought that I would drown in my grief. I am amazed at how much I miss my husband after knowing him for so short a time. But God has been so gracious and good to me. I have spent much time in prayer and worship during the last few months, and He has given me such an amazing sense of peace. It is so amazing, in fact, that it is beyond comprehension. During one of the times of prayer, I had this vision of floating on a river. It was so peaceful and relaxing that I just wanted to stay there and never leave. That's where this drawing comes from.

You may be reading this and reading my previous post and wonder, "How can you worship God and have such a sense of peace at a time like this?" The only thing I can tell you is this: I believe in a God that holds the entire course of human history in the palm of His hand. Being outside of time, He knows every beginning and every end. He alone knows the why's and wherefore's of my husband's passing. I trust that He has a greater purpose to accomplish, a purpose that I may not understand for many years to come, if ever. And that's okay. He gives me peace and grace to make it through each day, and for these gifts I am truly grateful.